Feb 06 2008
A Lenten Invitation
[Antiphon 1. See Joel 2:13] “Come back to the Lord with all your heart; leave the past in ashes, and turn to God with tears and fasting, for he is slow to anger and ready to forgive.”
I found myself reading these words from the Missal over and over again earlier this evening at Ash Wednesday Mass. They seemed to be calling to me, part invitation, part challenge. Leave the past in ashes.
Leave the past in ashes. Leave the past in ashes.
Is there something about being forgiven that I haven’t truly believed? Or is there something from the past to which I am clinging, impeding me from moving forward? Perhaps this will be a part of my Lenten journey this year.
May you all have a blessed Lent, as we travel together towards Easter, each of us with our unique invitation/challenge from the Lord.
It is very edifying to me. Thank you.
I wanted to read more of about it and looked up Joel 2:13, but couldn’t find “leave the past in ashes”.
I think it is the concept of the accompanying Antiphon and not a direct scripture quote of Joel,Gene.
Okay. . . Thanks.
Lucy, it’s been too long since I’ve been able to visit, but I know you’ve been working through the past for quite some time now… It’s not an easy process, is it, but I think it has to be a process (excepting Divine Intervention). If we don’t take the time to reflect, to gain some self-knowledge, have time to heal, to forgive and be forgiven, if we just shut things out in order to leave the past in ashes, I suppose it would rebound on us at some point. The great gift, I think, is recognizing the voice of the Holy Spirit, telling us it’s time now…move forward.
teresa, that’s it, isn’t it, doing the work to learn from the past mistakes and failures, but recognizing when the time has come to stop “retrieving” it. I don’t think it’s easy for anyone, but I’m sure this is tied in very strongly with the graces received in the Sacrament of Reconcilation. Thanks re your input on the Antiphon. You know, I googled it a bit, and came across this whole subject of Antiphony (new to me) and it seems to be a huge and very interesting area of study.
ukok, you’re especially on my heart and in my prayers for this Lent. I know things are extremely difficult right now. The other night I spent some time reading through everything I had missed, and despite everything, I want to tell you what a strong and courageous woman (and mom) you are. It’s easy for any of us to say “hang in there”, but I have felt completely overwhelmed by much, much less. I will keep you in my prayers, that the Lord will sustain you during this very difficult period and that the solutions will start rolling in, one by one.
Here, I’m talking about guilt over past wrongs rather than hurts caused to us.
Sometimes I think it’s a case of not finding forgiveness in ourselves, not loving ourselves as Jesus would want us to, and when we feel like that we can’t imagine a being who would love us and is ever ready to forgive that which we deem unforgivable.
And yet He is there, ever patient, ever waiting for the knock at the door.
So, then, this having never been a graveyard at all, thanks be to Christ Jesus Who strolled out of it (so alive that He soon ate fish with His Apostles on the beach to dispel ghost thoughts there, too), we go on over to His tomb which was empty after 3 days, and we stand behind Peter and see the linens, and the head cloth rolled up separately, and something here scares us in its impossible reality. We realize the Magdalen was right, and so we must run not to Apostles but to philosophers and those others who don’t yet know Easter’s Good News: Death is the illusion, not life. Love bursts through the shroud and renders any kind of death only a hearth ablaze with Absence.
Holy desert, a room in secret, or a graveyard.. fasting, abstaining, praying, almsgiving– and sifting. We must go in, with great sighs over our every sin, but also with sure hope. Hope to learn. To learn the Way. The Way out of graveyards! A mutual destination has been Prepared for us, and indeed, we found no baggage in the dirt nor in the Linen. Love must travel light, just as He said.
//Joakim